Well holibags was shit, spent most of it in bed watching shit tv and ill.

I need tae start taking and long hard look at my life, as of now it is going nowhere!

I am seriously not well, the depression is getting to the stage again I do not wish to be here any more! I get angry with myself that i cannot get out the mire, and i am frightained I will do something stupid. With this the paranoia is scary, i feel everyone is looking at my, and not in a good way.

I honestly cannot say I like myself, I am not a nice person, I closed and secretive, i dont open up to people, i bury my head in the sand and hope the world goes away.

What a sad pathetic life i have.