hello me

I am slowly loosing it!

I have not really described what it is like to go through a migraine attack, it is not a nice thing!

That is putting it mildly, it is fucking horrible, in its mild form, your eye expands and feels like someone has jammed a red hot poker through it, every sound you here reverberates in your head and you wish to shut out all light, that is in its mild form, last night and today, it felt easer if I just cut my head off, it would be actually better if I did not awake,.

The pain in the head starts to get totally worse so that it vibrates the whole of my skull, every slight movement, every slight bit of light hurts, and it’s ongoing, it doesn’t stop, you can’t stop it.

I have tried every painkiller known to man ether, the worst of those was Tramadol, now it takes the pain away easily, and you can go for weeks without pain, but if you take Tramadol all the time, when you come off them, the first symptom I got was insomnia.

Co-coda mol has been the one to save me over these nights, god bless Co-coda mol, ( if you believe in high sentient beings!)

Now all we need to pray for is this heat to go away and get back to the miserable rain, I like the rain, you feel more alive, also it’s calming, you don’t get this with the sun, all you get is skin cancer and feeling hot and sweaty, and that is something I cannie stand!

Hello, welcome, good evening, and pull up a chair!

Take off the sling-backs, loosen the straight jacket, and lets party!

I’m fed up, I am again back ill with may head issues, they are getting worse again, physically hurting me. This may also effect my job, and keeping it, knowing the way my luck runs, it won’t be the latter!

The stress in the house is getting worse, my little shit head of a brother is still ruling the roost, and my father is allowing him.

He, of course is taking this out on my mother, and now me, god forbid I loose my job, and the great luxury of my wage diminishes to nothing.

The pressure is getting more and more difficult, doesn’t help with the lack of understanding at work.

We are getting more and more treated like cattle, when one of us ‘goes funny’ we are dragged to a dark room, and a ‘new wan’ is ‘plonked’ is our place.

So I’m stressed out my box today, with a migraine that could sink the titanic, and every sods away with the lifeboats.

To-da-lo!