hello me

well i went to edinburgh by train, and well it was one street filled with shops and thats it, such a let down.

i only went anyway to go on the choo choo, and that was done in the drank and dreary january.

i have not come amongst you for a while partly because i have be unwell again, partly because i had a very shitty time over christmas, that involves the arsehole that was my brother (now disowened, his choice, i beleve words like piss on and fire, came into the conversation.)

i am still a little down after that caper, and probably will take me a long while to get over it, or a rich hunk, who wants a mad scots, to marry and take me away from all this.

i have got to the stage that i dont care, people can throw shit at me i will never be treated like a second class person again,

got to stop typing now, need to get ma head down and get rid of this mad headache.

to-da-loo

Morning campers!

I have not been with you for a while, but I have been working like a navvy, who has just won first prize in a navvy contest!

Crimble has been coming up, towards us, oh hold my head up and jump for joy, at the mass consumption exercise, in lowering the amount in my bank account for another month.

One good thing, I am going to try the new train line up to Edinburgh, but knowing my luck on the route up, it will do what it done at the opening of the new Bathgate station, and breakdown for 2 hours.

I will take my laptop and entertain myself on the way up, going by the price it will cost me to do this, it will be the only way of entertaining me!

Again I have the builders in, (every time I write this, I feel I have made a double entandre!) but it is true I have the new boiler getting put in, as of the lovely budget cuts, thanks to the FUCKING bankers and lovely eco call me Dave, and nick (sell ma own granny tae get intie power,) clegg, we are getting 1 brand spanking radiator per household. Which we will be all hovering around this this winter, while the FUCKING bankers, (their new legal name, we own them after all!) burn huge wads of money, and the poor, to keep their, eco loftspace, next to the river, warm.

Now we wouldn’t want them dieing now a cold miserable death, now would we?

I will try and rant to you next month, probs on a broken down train, freezing to death. It will be like the film Alive!, only based on a commuter train!

Nighty!

Funny things happen to your mind, when you ane hanging over a sink bowl and yer arse over a toilet.

The one end of the brain wants to die, as you empty yer insides, the other part is thanking everyone, incliding armaitage shanks, (god bless!)

I have been tom and dick again, I must have the immune system, of an asmatic flea, someone just has to breath on me, and have cat flu!

I havenie been among you for a while, well what you gonna do shoot me!

I have been away to my we bolt hole, but had the parents with me, who make TV’s George and Mildred, look like coupe of the year, (my dad is resembling a taller, Brian Murphy, every day.)

I have been thankfully away from the horrible job, which I will now sweep the streets naked to get away from!

Back home now and bored oot ma mind!

Nightie!

I am gonna explode!

Well not literarily, no in a ‘scanners,’ heid explodes in a mess, kinda way!

Nope, more in a padded zip-up the back, getting locked in the rubber room, singing sea shanty’s, out yer mind in mescaline!

I need now to look for a change, as I cannot swallow kalms for the rest of my life.

I have decided also, it will need to be away from call centres, what I am used to, but it is not going to be easy. I am not expecting it to be!

I am violently going insane!

Has been long time coming, and we all know I have the zip up the back jacket with my name on it.

But I digress, I want another holibags, I am getting more and more fed up, and it is getting tiring.

I don’t want to be like that, I want to be happy and ‘gay’ (well you knew I would pile that one in!)

But I am no happy and get soo down some times, I wish some days I don’t wake at all.

But enough of me lamenting, maybe I will meet a tall rich hunky man who will take me away from all this, oh look those pesky flying pigs again! What a menace!

Working me to my death, is the new thing!

Who needs Nazi death camps, when you have call centres!

I have noo been talking to you, because I’m so tired all the time, and the headaches are getting worse.

don’t feel sorry for me though I picked this horrible role

I am slowly loosing it!

I have not really described what it is like to go through a migraine attack, it is not a nice thing!

That is putting it mildly, it is fucking horrible, in its mild form, your eye expands and feels like someone has jammed a red hot poker through it, every sound you here reverberates in your head and you wish to shut out all light, that is in its mild form, last night and today, it felt easer if I just cut my head off, it would be actually better if I did not awake,.

The pain in the head starts to get totally worse so that it vibrates the whole of my skull, every slight movement, every slight bit of light hurts, and it’s ongoing, it doesn’t stop, you can’t stop it.

I have tried every painkiller known to man ether, the worst of those was Tramadol, now it takes the pain away easily, and you can go for weeks without pain, but if you take Tramadol all the time, when you come off them, the first symptom I got was insomnia.

Co-coda mol has been the one to save me over these nights, god bless Co-coda mol, ( if you believe in high sentient beings!)

Now all we need to pray for is this heat to go away and get back to the miserable rain, I like the rain, you feel more alive, also it’s calming, you don’t get this with the sun, all you get is skin cancer and feeling hot and sweaty, and that is something I cannie stand!